This Kiss, I Almost Said it … -J

My first double titled post! My title is composed by two songs : This Kiss and I Almost Said It, both are from Carly Rae Jepsen's new album ('KISS') I got the day it went out! The album is good, some songs are catchy and others really sweet (thinking about her duet with J.Bieber!)... Anyway! I couldn't decide between the two songs, so I took both! The first is catchy and danceable, the other is sweet and slow. They are perfect for what I'm gonna tell, it's all about being excited and totally soft. You'll understand and make you feel more secure, maybe, if you keep reading my post ;).

This kiss is something I can't resist
Your lips are undeniable
This kiss is something I can't risk
Your heart is unreliable
Something so sentimental
You make so detrimental
And I wish it didn't feel like this
Cause I don't wanna miss this kiss
I don't wanna miss this kiss

You know you're just my type
And your eyes are lock and key, to my heart
Tempting my confession
And you're a real hot thing
...
And you, I'm dancing to where you are
And your dancing to where I am
We're taking it way too far
But I don't want it to end

 

I always want more
I'm never gonna get it
You're gonna be the one I never got that got away
And I'll regret it
Just a moment in time
But I can't forget it
Yeah, we almost said it
If this is love, ooh
I should be dying
But I'm going downtown like I still care
Like I'm still trying
I said I was over you but I'm lying
There, I almost said it
…
Oh, when will you wake up and get it
This close, we almost said it
…
It's in my body language, read me
We were this close
This close, yeah
And it's like every time you look at me
I say it silently
Oh, wake up, baby, come and get it
This close, we almost said it
…
That still means someday you might be
Oh, this close, yeah, yeah
…
We were just this close but we couldn't say it
We were this close

So here! Hope with the lyrics you understood what I couldn't confess. The details. Why I am so stuck on what happened with this guy. Here it goes.
I'm not use to be that stuck on this kind of stories. Like I said before, in other posts, what I did was supposed to be something without sence, without signification. It was. Until I thought and thought and got that he was blowing my mind. Nothing was is it. He was the only thing left in there. Stupid me. It was a game. I use to be good at games like these. I couldn't be catch. But this time I lose.

 Nano made a post for all the girl who feel insecure... And here goes something that can maybe help you too...
I use to feel insecure. Always. Everyday. I can't look at me in the mirror withour thinking "how the fuck can I dare going out?". Shapes, you know...
But even if you think the worse things about you, there will always be people who will think you are not that bad, or that will look only the what you have to give, what you are inside.
I won't say that that summer was the first time I got a boy interested in me. That's not true, I do have some boys who asked me out, tried things or whatever (see, you guys don't have to worry ;)).
But they never saw me the way this man saw me. Wearing shorts, without make up after really short after-parties-nights (I only wear make up for two years... So TONS of people, well, my entiere high school, saw me without make up... But at that time I used to sleep a little more!), when I just got up, he heard my rough english... Well in fact it was just like we were living together... He just didn't see me in my pjs (Thanks God! lmao). And even after seeing what for me it's the worse of me, he still did what he did. "We were just that close....yeah, just that close". And this cancels on all the other boys I knew! Because they liked me but they always saw me in jeans, almost prepared, etc. He didn't. Okay... It sounds stupid, maybe he was just like the other boys that I used to know...
But he had something more, he was older (not like 10years older than me... just about...4/5 years more), he was really, really, really beautiful, he wasn't french, he was sweet and fierce, he had those sweet hands, theses incredible eyes... Anyway he was more than all the boys I had a crush on before.
And I never imagined we could feel the same because the way I was... I mean, there were so many beautiful girls, they were shaped just like models and I was like... like me. It wasn't like in high school were there was a few choice for the guys... He had an amazing board of girls. Pretty, tall, thin, sexy girls.
He made me feel good for a moment. A short/long moment. A moment that was independant from the time, from the space. I was just with him. The other disapeared. The music stopped. There was nothing left. Just us.

That game turned bad for me. But at least, for you guys reading it, it can make you know that even the cutest guy, the one better than your boyfriend (who is good), the one super hot. THE MAN! He can be interested by you and not your model friend, not the hot blond walking in high heels down the streets, this perfectly secure girl... No, you. Just you.
Trust it and it can be true.
And remember some guys said this :


LOVE and KISS
xxx
-Jess.