Illegal is a song excerpt from Shakira's album Oral Fixation. I love this song. The lyrics are strong, the chorus always makes me quiver. I didn't really know what song title could represent the most what I was going to talk about in my post... So I decided that the part "It should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart" was the most representative... Even if I'm not only talking about love here.
"You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
You said you would love me until you die
And as far as I know you're still alive, baby
You don't even know the meaning of the words "I'm sorry"
I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart"
Before I start with the big stuffs, I would like to say that it should be illegal to be as sexy as Logan Henderson is! Today, this amazing creature turns 23. So even if he won't see it : Happy Birthday Logan! "voilà!"
And now... Well, you already know that. I'm always thinking about the same "thing" (Oh!)... him.
Still thinking about how hard is to be dumpt by a friend... even if we weren't friends for years… It's still super tiresome and hurtful!
More that I know that with him I could be talking about something that annoys me a lot those days.
My best friend (not Nano, another one.) is weird... Well to let you understand I'll go a little bit in the past. Just a little!
Last year, was our senior year. We got our graduation and go to College. In this "we" my bestfriend (girl), that I will name E., wasn't included. She had to repeat senior year because she didn't get her graduation. So while repeating, she had (obviously) new classmates. In these classmates was a boy that I will name I.. E and I became friends. But this guy was always strange. He uses to lie about tons of things, to talk in people's backs (not as you and me could do, I swear!).
Anyway, she always told me that she will keep on being suspicious about him.
Now that her senior year is over they aren't in the same school anymore. But he wanted to see her again and again. She told me that she thought that after senior year he won't call her again. But weel, so they keep on meeting often. And now she seems different.
She tells me things like "You know, when you are with a guy like him, beautiful and swaggy, you feel cool yourself", and "I feel confident because I asked him if I looked like the strange girl from our class he would talk to me he said no, it means that he thinks I am cool and ... I don't know" ... Well so what she "doesn't know" is that she doesn't want to admit that he makes her feel beautiful and more confident about herself. Great... But that changes her A LOT!
My best friend (not Nano, another one.) is weird... Well to let you understand I'll go a little bit in the past. Just a little!
Last year, was our senior year. We got our graduation and go to College. In this "we" my bestfriend (girl), that I will name E., wasn't included. She had to repeat senior year because she didn't get her graduation. So while repeating, she had (obviously) new classmates. In these classmates was a boy that I will name I.. E and I became friends. But this guy was always strange. He uses to lie about tons of things, to talk in people's backs (not as you and me could do, I swear!).
Anyway, she always told me that she will keep on being suspicious about him.
Now that her senior year is over they aren't in the same school anymore. But he wanted to see her again and again. She told me that she thought that after senior year he won't call her again. But weel, so they keep on meeting often. And now she seems different.
She tells me things like "You know, when you are with a guy like him, beautiful and swaggy, you feel cool yourself", and "I feel confident because I asked him if I looked like the strange girl from our class he would talk to me he said no, it means that he thinks I am cool and ... I don't know" ... Well so what she "doesn't know" is that she doesn't want to admit that he makes her feel beautiful and more confident about herself. Great... But that changes her A LOT!
The fact that if she wasn't rich, good looking with expansive clothes, he won't talk to her. Wow, this guy totally understood the meaning of life. JERK!
He is totally superficial. It's true, he is handsome and has swagg. But he is stupid, liar, narcissic, egocentric and superficial.
He is totally superficial. It's true, he is handsome and has swagg. But he is stupid, liar, narcissic, egocentric and superficial.
I told E "this guy must be nice if you guys are friends... But I think he is just a shell. An empty shell. I think he is just beautiful. But in the inside, I'm not sure he is someone exceptional."
She always told me that I was right. But she keep on answering every text he sent her even if people (I) are talking to her... So she doesn't really pay attention to what you're saying to her. I even start to think that she's becoming more superficial.
This guys has a bad influence on her. He has a bad influence on MY bestfriend. Her, that always told me that she will never change for a guy. He is not even her boyfriend that she's already changing... I'm really affraid.
And a friend she has (boy) that I also know say the same to her. He told her the same things I did.
She always told me that I was right. But she keep on answering every text he sent her even if people (I) are talking to her... So she doesn't really pay attention to what you're saying to her. I even start to think that she's becoming more superficial.
This guys has a bad influence on her. He has a bad influence on MY bestfriend. Her, that always told me that she will never change for a guy. He is not even her boyfriend that she's already changing... I'm really affraid.
And a friend she has (boy) that I also know say the same to her. He told her the same things I did.
The guy that gave up on our friendship this summer told her the same.
The worst is that she KNOWS it! But I know why she doesn't want her friendship with I. stops. Because with him she feels swaggy, beautiful.
Can't her find a normal guy that makes her feel like that?! I don't know how to explain how I feel inside. I want to kick her, to make her understand. To have MY E. back! Not that superficial girl that only thinks about having the new phone, to be great looking, to have perfect colored hair... I don't like her as much as I love my E. the one who makes me laugh, the one who came to school with her sportwear saying "hmmm what the fuck, it's just high school"... Even if my real E. was a little bit superficial it wasn't a big deal... I want her back.
And I know that if the boy that doesn't want to speak to me anymore was still here I could do something to change it. Because he wasn't affraid to say to her "Don't you see that he is a jerk? You stay with a jerk? You want to be a jerk like him? Well, keep on staying with him so...".
I can't say that to her because she will think that I don't want her to feel good in her body, that I al jealous, maybe... I will never be jealous of having a friend that thinks that having a pair of Nike is more important that having humans worths.
Can't her find a normal guy that makes her feel like that?! I don't know how to explain how I feel inside. I want to kick her, to make her understand. To have MY E. back! Not that superficial girl that only thinks about having the new phone, to be great looking, to have perfect colored hair... I don't like her as much as I love my E. the one who makes me laugh, the one who came to school with her sportwear saying "hmmm what the fuck, it's just high school"... Even if my real E. was a little bit superficial it wasn't a big deal... I want her back.
And I know that if the boy that doesn't want to speak to me anymore was still here I could do something to change it. Because he wasn't affraid to say to her "Don't you see that he is a jerk? You stay with a jerk? You want to be a jerk like him? Well, keep on staying with him so...".
I can't say that to her because she will think that I don't want her to feel good in her body, that I al jealous, maybe... I will never be jealous of having a friend that thinks that having a pair of Nike is more important that having humans worths.
I am sorry I told you that. But I had to free myself. I'm disturbed about having a friend that is becoming weird because of a jerk! It's so annoying!
The guy didn't seem to be that stupid, but it's even more terrible that I see how much he is superficial by seeing how my friend is becoming... I'm affraid she won't see that he doesn't worth it.
Anyway... After friendship... nothing special.
I still think about him. More that Logan turned 23. They were born the same year, I just got that. It means I could be dating Logan... (Logan if you see it and want to try something... Call me... maybe.!)
I still think about him. More that Logan turned 23. They were born the same year, I just got that. It means I could be dating Logan... (Logan if you see it and want to try something... Call me... maybe.!)
Yeah, this summer I met a lot of boys (men? no boys... I dunno!) who were about 20/24 years old. Two of them were in my work they asked my age and when I told them "I'm 19" they say "Oww... I thought you were at least 20 or 21!" (thanks?! lol Whe you are young you think it's cool to look older... let's talk about it in 20 years, girls! ;)). But some people, most of the time the family I see once a year, keep on asking "how old are you now..? sixt... OOOOH! Nineteen???! (like WTF?!! her? 19?) good girl!!" lmao!
Anyway, it's not important to look like a 16 year old girl or like a 21 year old young woman... Does it? LOL
What I can't bear is 16 year old girls wearing waaaaaaay too much make up! It's like "Girl, you didn't put enough, your face is still visible!". Or wearing clothes like 20... No wait, even 20 year old girl won't wear that. Or maybe 20 year old whores... MAYBE! ;)
Not wanting to be bad, sorry! ;)
Anyway, it's not important to look like a 16 year old girl or like a 21 year old young woman... Does it? LOL
What I can't bear is 16 year old girls wearing waaaaaaay too much make up! It's like "Girl, you didn't put enough, your face is still visible!". Or wearing clothes like 20... No wait, even 20 year old girl won't wear that. Or maybe 20 year old whores... MAYBE! ;)
Not wanting to be bad, sorry! ;)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN, LOGAN! ♥
LOVE TO ALL OF YOU,
—Jessica. (click and visit my tumblr! I post photos I took during trips or just for fun!)
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