"She Will Be Loved" -by Jessica

She Will be Loved, is another song of Maroon 5. I'm so in love with Adam's voice. And with Adam himself. I love this song. Always loved it!
Just to tell something about Maroon 5 : They started their carreer 10 years ago, in 2002. I was only 9 and I already liked the songs. Ten years after, I'm not a child anymore, i still love the songs, I'm in love with the singer who looks far better than ten years ago, and well, now I can tell him that I'm legal... Okay, rude. And that's pretty the same for Shakira... for the SONGS! I'm not in love with her ..! Anyways...

I didn't came with a special aim. Today I went to Paris with my cousin's girlfriend. I really like her, she's really nice! Talked a lot about her relationship with him, but anyways, "engaged" people (they are together for two years now... yes she's 18 too) always talk about their couple. But she's cool anyway. We went to the Arts' bridge with all thoses lockers with couples names and anniversary's date. That's soooooooo romantic. HHHUMM!! I'm alone! LMAO. Not that I don't like it. I enjoy my singleness (exists? who cares!?). I don't wanna "grow" too fast (part of me : "HELLO! you are considered as grown, so act like an adult and stop saying that you don't wanna grow too fast... It's already done!" ; other part of "Oh, you shut the fuck up!!! She's a teenage girl who has a lot to learn, she is still like a little kid..!" Yes, I'm both, and?!!!) (don't pay too much attention to it, I'm not schizophrenic, just tired!).


And I read Nano's post saying that she's just a kid hated by her boss... I'm sure it's not true! She can't hate you! And be brave... It's soon over. School is coming fast. This bitch is always faster than evrything else! 


Don't go too speed, because even if you think you are tacking advantage, the time isn't going faster. Wait for the right moment to do things. And faster you run, closer is the end.
It's useless to run, good things come to those who wait. But don't wait to much, huh! (See, I'm so divided in my own self! Or maybe this isn't being divided, but balanced. Yeah, I prefer to be balanced. "Dude, I'm balanced, ok!?")

LOVE (and crazyness, tonight!),

—DulceJessica.

This post is gonna help me to let it go. I don't ask you to read it. I just need to write it. I feel like this past few days were the hardest of my life. I feel not okay but I keep on pretending that I am; And that's awful to care about people's issues without having them caring about you. I never talk about my family about what's really in my head because I feel so different from them that Im just afraid of their reaction. I used to think that my differences made me stronger. But it doesn't! I try so hard to fit in the reality world and I can't because this is not me. YES, I'm 18, but I AM A KID! And I don't want a guy in my life, I don't want to hang out, I want to be me. I want to have fun while working, and now I just feel useless! My boss hates me, I can feel it, only because Im the most thoughtless and clumsy girl she has hired in her life and I don't think she has an idea of how bad I feel. I am an actress, I'll always be, I feel so comfortable while acting and this is what I want to feel at work. I thought this was my life, and that I could choose what I wanted to be. But apparently being an artist isn't a job! Well I'm sorry but I won't be a lawyer, a doctor or what, I'm just me and I'm not afraid of loosing myself because this reality world is not mine. It's yours. I don't belong to this.

Xoxo, Nano

"Fortune Teller"… by Jésica.

Fortune Teller, is a song from Maroon 5's new album. I'm in love with this band. Since I'm a kid "This Love" is one of my favorite songs (when I was a kid, I didn't understand the lyrics!). Maroon 5 is one of my favorite band of the moment. They are incredible, and Adam Levine couldn't be more sexy! He is better with his 33 years-old than with his 23! I'm just in love. The song is great. The title is perfect for my post.

 Today is July, 1st. 7 days left and I will be 19.  I'm not into ages. 19, it's just 18+1! And 18 was nothing more than the year I was graduated, I got my dricing licence, and I entered College. Such a big year but nothing really stricking. Just the useful. What will my 19 made of? That's the only thing that scares me! I feel like my future is really hazy. I haven't any real goal. I mean I don't know what I wanna work in. Oh wait, I do : Drama. I want to be an actress. But I mean, I don't know what I can peak as a rescue wheel. And I feel like this rescue wheel could be my life, actually. Because, if acting is my passion, what are my chances to make it become my life? I realised that it wasn't my destiny. I have to run away from my destiny to live it. Because our destiny is the same. There are just some brave ones who ran away from it and got to live their dreams and make it become their life. But living your dreams was never your destiny.
So I would like to plan my run, but it's hard.
More, arriving to my 19th b-day, I'm making a little balance. The balance is kinda like a comparison. Lately I've been talking with my cousin's girlfriend. She is the same age as me, and he is 1 year older than us. They are together for 2 years now, and latekly, they have some problems.
I compared myself with her : She's already into a real relationship, and I've never been into something serious. And I think I'm weird because lots of girl of 19 are into serious relationships. I think I may have a problem. But in another way, with the problems she has with him, she's like destroyed, she's always sad, blahblahblah. I don't wanna be sad because of a man! Gosh, I think I have like...YEARS to live sad relationship situations! So I feel like I'm truly living my "teenage", I'm FREE! No men, no problems! Better! ...I guess..? I don't know! And that's the why of the balance. It's kinda hard to make it. And probably it doesn't matter. Everyone has a life style. And mine isn't bad... I mean, I guess I'm happy like that. Not always. But at least often.

Whatever, even if my future is unclear, I'll try to turn off my front fog lamp and just go. Live the moment. Because I'm tired of regrets. My future is unclear but my present is right here. So I'm just gonna grab it, make it like I want and for the rest, I'll just see. The future depends on what I'm doing now. So i won't spent my time being sad about my lake knowledge about future because I draw it!
I try to feel like all is beginning now. I'm maybe not an Hollywood star, but I'm the actress of my own life.
"Think Positive, Be Amazing"— Wiz Khalifa

∟♥⋎ℇ,

−♩essica.

"Not Like The Movies", -Jessica.

As always, my titles are songs' titles. Not like the movies, is a song from one of my favorite artists: Katy Perry. 

I use to come here to have something to speak about. Today is different, I come here to find something to talk about. I just wanted to write. I feel good writing here. Dunno if anyone is reading, but a solo therapy isn't bad at all. Even if talking to myself could appear creepy, I think there ain't no better confident than yourself, you are the only one to understand you at 100%! But, you can't be your friend..! Anyways!

I just finished a book about girls spending the whole summer together, having fun, partying, loving, hating, having troubles... but always with an happy ending. I miss it. The holidays, obviously, but more the happy ending stuff! I mean, when you turn like 17, happy endings aren't obvious. They are more like an option. If you want a happy ending, you better work out to get it, while being young, happy endings just came out naturally. Good old times, huh!
This saturday, I went to my uncles'. My cousins, a boy and a gril, are, respectively, 12 and 8 years old. And entering their room full of toys and full of that amazing smell of innocence and carefreeness, I was like "Uh, if only I could turn back to my 6 years-old!". My 12 year-old cousin didn't got it. When you're 12 you're like "Dude! I can't wait to be 18! I will be free, and do whatever I want"; turning 18, you finally get that being 12 you were more free than what you can be now. Responsability messes all!
Anyway! I think that nothing happen by casuality. It always happen for something. Most of the time, this something escape you. But I guess that this has a reason too!

Like this old friendship I'm still stuck on. I still don't know why it doesn't work. Or well, I know why. But I don't understand why some persons don't understand that friendship could be way more stronger than a relationship which will maybe last for some weeks. The love you give to a friend is maybe not much in the everyday, but if you watch it in an entiere life it's much more than the love you'll give to a lover in months. And a lover can't be true if you don't consider him as a friend too. (That's my opinion.)

"In Real Life", by Jess.

In Real Life, by Demi Lovato. Because I like the title. The song is catchy. And the lyrics are real.

Recently, I really felt what the words "mature", "adult", "responsabilities" and "19" stand for : Real life. I'm gonna be 19 in a few days. Not that I do really want to grow up. If I could, I would be just like Peter Pan, without Captain Hook, I hate vilains... They want me to grow up. By they I mean my parents. For them, 19 is the age you have to be a real adult. Not taking your own decisions about the going out-stuff, just about the work, the maturity and the responsabilities. This is not the best part, of course. I'm mad at them because they just want me to be adult in the way they want me to. But I also know that this is the real way of becoming adult. For me 19 means just 18+1, more parties, more friends, more going out, long nights, drive my car thinking in how life could be great "if"... Change the world because that's what "young adult" are made to..!
But that's for golden people. For people like me, like us, "young adult" just mean "If you wanna drink a lot of champagne, go work for it", "you wanna drive your car as far as you want, work for the fuel oil". And that's normal, of course. But I'm a Dreamer, so I wasn't expected to be put in front of Life like this. I'm the kind of person who totally know how bitchy Life is, I'm aware of that since I'm 13! But I'm also the kind of person that decided to be stronger than it. Life is a bitch, who cares? She won't stop me. This is dangerous? And what? If you don't try, you won't have anything. But like my mom says, I'm this person who decides to brave things just for fun, when I know it's gonna be cool, and not for something really important.

Recently, I'm lost. I don't know where I'm going to, what I'll be. My dreams are stainned.


-Jessica.

"Worldwide" —by Jessica.

Worldwide, by Big Time Rush. One of the sweetest song ever. The title was just perfect for my post, and some words of the lyrics too.

I've been thinking lately about the way people live. Where they live and where they want to live. And when you ask the question, the answer never quote two times the same city name.
I live in Paris, but I would like to live in LA, Buenos Aires, São Paulo or Madrid.
And people living in LA, Bs As, SP or MDRD would tell you one of the other cities less their.
We're never satisfied.
And lately, thinking about that, I've cought myself wishing my parents had return to Portugal when I was younger (yes, my parents are from Portugal, both.). When I see the way my cousins live, I'm like "Dude, that's so different and cooler than here!". Parents there act like Americans, I guess, just as if danger was inexistant. And it's quit true. In the city where my cousins leave, even if there are always more junkies, I've never heard something about a problem with a girl, I've never had troubles (in Paris, even not junk people come and look at you just like if they could see the future writen on your butt!). I know my life would have been like thousand times more exiting there than here. I would party every evening, every friday and saturday night. I would live my life!
(Musical interlude : Justin Bieber's "I'm gonna live...my life. No matter what we party tonight. I'm gonna live my life. I know we gon' be alright" came out naturally! lol)
So I was just thinking about it. The only bad point I found was that in Portugal, Nano and my other friends aren't present. And there would be missing something without Nano, without them!

My grand ma' recently told me that a room was waiting for me in her house. That I will find a job easily with my perfect French, my almost-fine Engligh and my good Spanish. And also that she was okay to pay me a car if I accepted to drive her to the town. She's really sweet.
I was thinking about that and one extra year in Portugal before going away to our trip to LA with Nano couldn't be that bad. But Portugal is really bad (even a lot of Portugueses are still living happily), just like Spain... So well, it's just another thought, another mini-dream.

I know how lucky I am to live 30 mn far from the Eiffel Tower, from the city of love, city of lights, city of everything! But when you know that the city you live in can't bring you what you expect from life, and just make you wanting to live as glamourously as people see parisians life, you better leave.

Live and leave. That's maybe what we're all supposed to do. Not at the very end, but before the very end of our life.

LOVE,

—Jessica.

Happy First Anniversary, Frenchies In LA!

Happy 1st Anniversary, Frenchies In LA!

Two days ago, June 1st, it was our one year anniversary of creating account on twitter.

But it wasn't just the creation of a simple account on a social network. The day we decided to create twitter was the day of the creation of "Frenchies In LA" because we were looking for a username which could be just our new "crew" name. And so "Frenchies In LA" born, just as an evidence.

So this June, 1st, was the day for 1 year of the beginning of projects, crazy thoughts, long discussions, search for flats in LA's side (Special remember for the one in San Dimas!)... Well one year of hope, crazyness and must of all special friendship. Since one year, Nano and I are closer than before. And two days ago we were thinking about it : In one year, a lot happened, for sure, but nothing which can be really decisive for us. But anyway, we also swear to never give up.

And so, this one year anniversary was the same day of Marilyn Monroe's birthday. So I choose this picture of her with a cake. If you're a little bit observative, this photo is the same for this year's Festival de Cannes! And this Festival is really connected to what Nano and I want... So maybe all of this is a sign... Don't you think?

Let's let Destiny play her role.


Much LOVE.

—Nano & Jess, the Frenchies In LA!