The World is Mine - J

The World is mine is this song by Bob Sinclar, I think. I can't really remember... But the title came up like this.

I know I've been missing for long weeks (months?) now. I'm so sorry about it. And here I came with a huge paradox : The World is mine. Yes. I feel like I rule my World. Like I can now take decisions by my own. I'm more free. And the paradox is here : I'm more free, but I have no times for me. I don't have week ends, because I work. During the week I'm at school, and during the week ends I'm working. I love to work, to earn money. I can say that "Yes, I earn my own money. I don't ask my parents for cash anymore". It feels great, you'll see (if you don't yet).

So yes, I have less time for everything. When I have a moment, I go out, hang around or just chill far from anything that could ask me too much attention. "I want to break free... I want to break free" as would say this genius Freddy Mercury!

But I miss being in it with Nano. I don't forget anything about our promises, about our dream. In a way, everything gets me back here, in it. I can't forget what I want my whole life to be about. I'm more and more aware that the only work that I would be able to do every single day during years and years is actress. I can't help it. I'm born drama girl! I put Drama in everything. My life is a comedy. When I'm home, I often suddenly look at my parents or my sister and began to act like "What? No way! HOW DARE YO?! If you do it again, I'm sorry but it will be the end of it. Don't count me in anymore. I'm done. DONE!" while they were just watching tv or doing some stuffs.
Sometimes, I wish it could be easier. Sometimes I wish I could be like the others, wanna work in the International Ship, or be a lawyer. But no. I had to be this girl who wants to become an actress. This girl who has huge dreams. Dreams are cool. But they can easily tear you down when they are so difficult to reach. It's not easy to live this way. People here can easily laugh at you if you claim out loud that you want to be an actress. "Since when actress is a job?" "Are you kidding me? An actress really? And why not president?" - No, I'm not kidding you, and yes, an actress, not president, not deputate, not your mother. An actress.
It's hard to believe in you when you can't even say out loud what you want your life to be about.
But I'll will believe, until the end. And when We'll hit the LAX floor, I'll believe in me even more. There will be no steps back. We will go BIG TIME!

Recently, I started to think that dream can come true. I've been rounded by lots of people that are living thanks to their passion. I'm doing an internship in a sort of artistic (danse, music, martial art) academy and I've been talking to person who are now huge professional of this dancing-martial art.
More, when your life is about arts, it's so cool. Theses persons are too much fun, they are so open and so kind!

We will be there. We will get what we want, what we need. It's more than a dream, it's vital.

Sorry for being so out. I'm not done, just busy.
Mucho amor!

—J