As always, my titles are songs' titles. Not like the movies, is a song from one of my favorite artists: Katy Perry.I use to come here to have something to speak about. Today is different, I come here to find something to talk about. I just wanted to write. I feel good writing here. Dunno if anyone is reading, but a solo therapy isn't bad at all. Even if talking to myself could appear creepy, I think there ain't no better confident than yourself, you are the only one to understand you at 100%! But, you can't be your friend..! Anyways!
I just finished a book about girls spending the whole summer together, having fun, partying, loving, hating, having troubles... but always with an happy ending. I miss it. The holidays, obviously, but more the happy ending stuff! I mean, when you turn like 17, happy endings aren't obvious. They are more like an option. If you want a happy ending, you better work out to get it, while being young, happy endings just came out naturally. Good old times, huh!
This saturday, I went to my uncles'. My cousins, a boy and a gril, are, respectively, 12 and 8 years old. And entering their room full of toys and full of that amazing smell of innocence and carefreeness, I was like "Uh, if only I could turn back to my 6 years-old!". My 12 year-old cousin didn't got it. When you're 12 you're like "Dude! I can't wait to be 18! I will be free, and do whatever I want"; turning 18, you finally get that being 12 you were more free than what you can be now. Responsability messes all!
Anyway! I think that nothing happen by casuality. It always happen for something. Most of the time, this something escape you. But I guess that this has a reason too!
Like this old friendship I'm still stuck on. I still don't know why it doesn't work. Or well, I know why. But I don't understand why some persons don't understand that friendship could be way more stronger than a relationship which will maybe last for some weeks. The love you give to a friend is maybe not much in the everyday, but if you watch it in an entiere life it's much more than the love you'll give to a lover in months. And a lover can't be true if you don't consider him as a friend too. (That's my opinion.)
