In Real Life, by Demi Lovato. Because I like the title. The song is catchy. And the lyrics are real.
Recently, I really felt what the words "mature", "adult", "responsabilities" and "19" stand for : Real life. I'm gonna be 19 in a few days. Not that I do really want to grow up. If I could, I would be just like Peter Pan, without Captain Hook, I hate vilains... They want me to grow up. By they I mean my parents. For them, 19 is the age you have to be a real adult. Not taking your own decisions about the going out-stuff, just about the work, the maturity and the responsabilities. This is not the best part, of course. I'm mad at them because they just want me to be adult in the way they want me to. But I also know that this is the real way of becoming adult. For me 19 means just 18+1, more parties, more friends, more going out, long nights, drive my car thinking in how life could be great "if"... Change the world because that's what "young adult" are made to..!
But that's for golden people. For people like me, like us, "young adult" just mean "If you wanna drink a lot of champagne, go work for it", "you wanna drive your car as far as you want, work for the fuel oil". And that's normal, of course. But I'm a Dreamer, so I wasn't expected to be put in front of Life like this. I'm the kind of person who totally know how bitchy Life is, I'm aware of that since I'm 13! But I'm also the kind of person that decided to be stronger than it. Life is a bitch, who cares? She won't stop me. This is dangerous? And what? If you don't try, you won't have anything. But like my mom says, I'm this person who decides to brave things just for fun, when I know it's gonna be cool, and not for something really important.
Recently, I'm lost. I don't know where I'm going to, what I'll be. My dreams are stainned.
-Jessica.
