This post is gonna help me to let it go. I don't ask you to read it. I just need to write it. I feel like this past few days were the hardest of my life. I feel not okay but I keep on pretending that I am; And that's awful to care about people's issues without having them caring about you. I never talk about my family about what's really in my head because I feel so different from them that Im just afraid of their reaction. I used to think that my differences made me stronger. But it doesn't! I try so hard to fit in the reality world and I can't because this is not me. YES, I'm 18, but I AM A KID! And I don't want a guy in my life, I don't want to hang out, I want to be me. I want to have fun while working, and now I just feel useless! My boss hates me, I can feel it, only because Im the most thoughtless and clumsy girl she has hired in her life and I don't think she has an idea of how bad I feel. I am an actress, I'll always be, I feel so comfortable while acting and this is what I want to feel at work. I thought this was my life, and that I could choose what I wanted to be. But apparently being an artist isn't a job! Well I'm sorry but I won't be a lawyer, a doctor or what, I'm just me and I'm not afraid of loosing myself because this reality world is not mine. It's yours. I don't belong to this.
Xoxo, Nano
