"60 dias apaixonado" —Jéssica.

"60 Dias Apaixonado" is a song by Michel Teló, it means "60 days in love". I choose this title because I'm gonna talk about the concert, and because I'm just in love with Michel ahah. Magic of after shows, it always happen! ;)

Before talking about the concert, I just wanted to talk quickly about last Saturday night. It was my cousin's 20th birthday so we made a big party. I was with all my cousins (from my mom's side, and I'm not really close to them!)! I only spoke to one. But that party wasn't that cool, because I was like super tired, I couldn't even dance or something! But this Saturday night had something: I learnt few hours before going to the party that my cousin had tickets for Michel Telo's show in Le Zénith de Paris!
So well, the party was nice, no more lol!

Michel Teló's show

Monday, May 21st

@LeZenithDeParis. 

Saturday, May 19th, I receive the following message : "Hello sweetie, how are you doin'? I was wondering : Would you like to come with me to Michel Telo's show this monday? P. got tickets and she offered me 2. Let me know if you can! Kisses! -S" (we don't speak like in GossipGirl, but letters are to let you guys understand!;))
I called her trembeling saying "It is a joke? You're kidding me, right?", well, she wasn't and I obviously said yes (that yes made my sister going crazy because she also wanted to come, but 14 is too young for a concert, sorry! xD)

Well, I was waiting to this Monday like a little girl wait for Christmas. Then Monday came. The Saint Monday, the Monday of my life (for now! I'm still waiting for Big Time Rush to have THE TIME OF MY LIFE! ;).
So my cousin P. (she is a girl) came to take me to her home to get prepared to go.
Then we peek up A. (my cousin's best friend, he is a boy) and then S. (my other cousin, a girl, too!)

I wrote the whole post and my web box bugged.
Everything disappeared.
I'm too furious to rewrite it all today.
I'll do it another day, letting you know by twitter, in case you're interested to read the post about the show.

See you,

—Jéssica.

"Somebody" by Jessica.

Somebody is a song from Disney Channel's Lemonade Mouth. I felt in love with this movie! I wish so bad it could happen to me! Just making something with your friends and then being recognize, listened... Turning like somebody important, delevering an hopefull message to tons of peeps. That's amazing. That's what I wanna be: someone spreading hope, love and happiness around me!

So as I tweeted like a thousand times, yesterday and tonight I was at the theater to see and support one of my best friends! She was acting in her school play. As Nano and I used to do during 3 years. I went there to remember good memories, to feel it. It wasn't really the same. I could see the others biting their nails because of anxiety and stress... And I was like "Chillax, dude! It ain't a dig deal!". It was so easy for me to say that. But one year before, I was just like them : freaked out. But you freak out backstage, before your scene. But when I was on stage, it was like being in a bath : you're just feeling so right. You pray to make it last forever. It's so good. And when you start to be aware that you're saying your last lines, you're sad. And when you go back backstage, you're already melancholic and just can't wait to play a second and a third time. That' a feeling so good.

I felt even more melancholic these times : I was playing. And I know that I will probably never play again. Not like this.
When the students of my ex high school were all on stage for the final and were being aplaused by the audience I felt so sad and happy. I thought about the times I was on it. You're on the stage, the spotlights are on you, the crowd is shouting, not only for you, but you don't care. At that moment, there's just you, your "co-star", maybe. They are all here claping, whistling… You feel like you made them having a good time this night. You feel useful, happy. Happy to mean something.
And the thing that makes you feel like you could live in Bel Air, be on the billboards of the city for your next movie : people at the supermarket telling you "Last night, you girls were good!" with a smile.

Maybe you think I'm narcisic or maybe crazy. But I'm not. Or just crazy maybe. But if you knew that feeling once, it's like a drug. You're addicted to this. To being on stage. To play.
And feeling like the others appreciate what you're doing is even better. You feel like you can make someone smile. That's how I would like to feel. That's why I wanna be an actress, to give the same that some actors give me. Some actors make me feel happy, make me hope... You can give a lot t others playing. That's what I want : give to others doing something I love.

Hope you guys can feel this someday.

"And I say OH! We're gonna let it show, we're gonna just let go of everything, holding back our dreams. And try, to make it come alive. Come on let it shine so they can see, we were meant to be... Somebody, somebody, yeah. Somehow, someday, someway. Somebody"

LOVE.

—Jess.

"We Own The Night" —Jessica.

We Own The Night in a song by Selena Gomez! Got her album When The Sun Goes Down a few weeks ago, at the same time as Demi's. Really good! I'm in love with some of her songs! The title I choose illustrated the post I'm going to write! I was hesitating with Lemonade Mouth's songs too, they are great and I'm in love with the album!

So here it goes! Last Saturday night it was the party for my uncle's 40th birthday! They did a 'little' party with friends and family. Usely, I don't dance at parties with my family, I'm more self restricted than when I'm with my friends (I can let my evil side go out! lol). But this time, I decided to show up who I really was : a girl who just like to have fun! The thing was easy!
Lot of things where in my mind during this party: my cousin bringing his girlfriend (I love her, she's now a good friend!), and my cousin's cousin (from her mother's family) bringing her boyfriend. To let you understand, I was the only "young adult" without date. You see that?! lol Everybody thinks I actually have a boyfriend but that I don't wanna show it. But the truth is that I do am single (and... "ALL THE SINGLE LADIES, ALL THE SINGLE LADIES, PUT YOUR HANDS UP!"). And I felt like I was really skiping something lol. You may think I'm crazy or something. But what?! It's true! And my dad was talking to my cousin's cousin, let's name her Carlota (yeah, that's like revenge, and what?!). SO my dad was talking to Carlota about sex and everything like this, kidding and goofing with her. Dude, (I mean, Dad!), she's younger than me! And that's not a topic you would like me to talk about with someone's dad, so back off! My father is always cool with other's kids... Thanks, Daddy.
And well, so I was thinking that my life wasn't normal at all... But I handled that!

At the party, another thing struck me : two kids.
My uncle and aunt are friends with a couple for a long time now. This couple is just so nice! I really like them! I was very young when I went to their marriage. Last Saturday I saw then again, I didn't see them for years! And well, we talked together. This couple has 2 boys. They are the cuttest boys I've ever meet. I felt in love with those kids! They are 11 and 8 years old. At the beginning they were playing with the other kids and then, without any reason they started playing with me. They wanted me to be with them, etc. And when my cousin and his girlfriend went away, I stayed with the children, goofing with them and talking. And the 2 boys where just too cute!! I told their father I will adopt them and the little one was like "yes, yes, yes!"! He was so cute!
And what I wanted to say telling that, is that I realised that I really wanted to work with kids. At least during one year! I have this idea since a while, but those two little boys made that stronger! I would like to work with kids, like being a nanny, full-time nanny during some months.
You know, like in Jessie, the Disney Channel Serie!

Whatever, I have tons of dreams! I just wanted to write it down. Maybe to read it in some years and remember how dreamer I was. :)

I'll be back this week with a new post! Maybe about Nano and I, together at the rehearsals of our old theater crew... I wish we were still in high school to be able to able to play again on this stage! What good times we had there! :) I'll never forget!

See you soon!

—Jessica, the Dreamer.

Family

This post is a text I'm gonna write about my sister. I just wanted to write something about her. She really is someone special and I want you guys to know it. Obviously, I am often mad at her, but every sister are right?

When I was a kid, I was a really, quiet, still, shy little girl and my sister got all the attention. She was the star, and I was nothing. That's why I once told her what was on my mind, that I felt like she felt superior than me. And it kinda hurt her.
Today, she is my best friend. She still get the attention, but I don't mind that much anymore. She's seventeen months older than me, and she always takes care of me, even if I don't need that. I'm grateful that she didn't forget me. This girl is the most amazing girl I know. I mean, she's really smart, bright, beautiful, almost engaged, happy, aware; and I earn so much from her, everyday. I don't really know if she's aware of how much I admire her, and I don't think she would ever know that.
She's my sister, she protects me, she's my best friend, and I love her so much that I would do anything for her. And she's the one who does anything for me. She buys me presents with no reason, and makes me feel smarter, she is really frank and I need that. She tells me everything and don't get mad if I prefer not to tell her my secrets. So here it is, just a little text to tell her how much I love her, and how much I'm grateful to have this person next to me 24/7 days a week.
                                                                                                                                                    Nano

"Give Your Heart A Break" ; by Jess.

"Give Your Heart A Break" is a song of Demi Lovato's new album. This album is really good, Demi has changed, matured and her voice is just even more beautiful than before and her lyrics are real and great! Go get it!(just wanted to add, I didn't chose this song for its lyrics, but for the title! ;))

 Today I felt melancholic because of an old story... A broken friendship. And I feel bad. Just to explain quickly, I had a (boy) friend (in fact I have manies, but he was special). With him I could talk about anything, any topic, at any hour. It was fun and great. I loved him so much. And this love was a little bit ambiguous. For me it was clear (I think), we were friends. Just friends. But for him we were not meant to be just friends. It was about chimistry. But I never wanted to go farther. And I though we were both cool with that. We had several fights about it... The longest was between october and march. We didn't talk during all those months. I was hurt about it. Some weeks after we began to talk again (and it was perfect), we fought again. And since early march I didn't talk to him. At the beginning it was clear to me, we couldn't be just friends, but there won't be nothing more either. So I turned the page... But just like in a book, sometimes you just like to read the best pages of it... That's what I've done today, all of a sudden! I though about all the good moments we spend together, the conversations we had. All this good time you have with a friend... It's all over now. For good I think, and I'm sad. I miss him. But I just can't tell him. Because I'm proud and because he's a jerk. I know that if we talk again it will start all over again, we'll hae fun, and then there will have another fight.
And right now I feel stupid to miss him because he probably doesn't think of me... or maybe he does.
I hate to lose a friend. No matter who s/he's! It's a sad feeling.

So well, tomorrow I'll be better!

Keep your friends with you. They are golden.

—Jess.