Acting is about telling a story. Not a story about love, about a job, about sex. Acting is telling a story. A story that has a meaning for you. I watched The Help tonight. This is telling a story. Malcolm X is a story, American History X is a story. Art had as goal to express our feelings, to express what do we feel about this society. But nobody get that anymore, because real Art has been eaten by capitalism, and now every song, every movie, every paint, is about fun, sex and Carpe Diem. Did you remember when John Lennon sang about peace, when Nelson Mandela fought in South Africa, when our Prophet Muhammad (May peace be with him) fought to free his community, mine now? Does anyone know what is Art now? Do I know it myself? I have no idea. I'm superficial sometimes, I love food, fashion, jewels, beauty. But sometimes too, I got this feeling screaming down in my soul, who's crying, and saying, who did you think you were?
Denzel Washington is my favorite actor since a long time. Do you know why? Everytime, in every movie I watched, I looked at his face and I just felt releaved. Why? He understood something that only a few people got, I think. I look at him, and I just know, that Hollywwod has still a heart you know. Denzel Washington makes me want to be an actress, he makes me want to tell a story.
I want to be an actress to tell a story. Mine. It might has no sense right now, but it does. If God permits me to do it, I will.
I'm a nice girl. I really am. I love a lot of people and I trust them even if I shouldn't. I hope for people, but I don't do anything for them. I think this is more selfish that if you don't think anything. People think I'm unable because I'm naïve and that Im hoping to make a change.
I'm weird, I also know that. Not weird like the others but I think you can all find a part of yourself in me.
I'm special, but I think you could like me. Why? Because deep inside I'm a good girl, sometimes funny, sometimes fatalist, but a good girl. I'm just special, I just think differenty. I just buy dreams where people think there's no dreams anymore. I will always love someone. I just won't love a guy, not now, this is too creepy. :) Good night world, please stay safe tonight, I need it.
