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Hey guys, Nano Nansy here, just wanted a few words.

I guess Jess and I are having some tough days. I won't tell about my feelings, everybody knows that. I went to a party tonight. That was, well, nice. I didn't stay a long time, my parents didn't want to. And that's right guys, at 11pm, I was already home. And that is not a problem for me. I know, all of you like going out, having fun, see your friends... I don't, I mean I love Jess, she's my BF, I love a lot of my friends but I feel like it'd be better for me and my friends to not hang out with me. Im not like the others girls, I mean,I wish I was. I wish that my problems could only be about boys, make up, clothes. But it's not, because since Im eight, my problems are just my feelings. Im fighting with myself since a long time, and I promise you guys, I dream so much about being in love but I don't care, all is about my career.Let's be clear, I don't want a boyfriend, I will never do. I just wanna find the key of this big knot in my stomach that never goes away. And Im tired of always have to be nice, making concessions to satisfy people that don't even thank you. But I don't know how to do, I don't know who to be. When Im not okay, I say it. When Im happy, I say it. But when I promise, I always lie. That's why I need to be alone, I need to be free, that none friend would need me, I need to be in my bed, several covers on me, alone, that's all. Im not sick, I know that, Im just not normal, I have this thing inside me that forbid me to be conventional. I know what I am, I learn it today. I am an artist, the way I see things, the way I do things, the way I love things, it was never like all the people around us, it was ever like you.

I guess that is all, Im going now, still looking for. Good night. Nano Nansy.