"I come from far away." -N

I promised myself that I would write something this week, so yeah here it is.
I know it's been a while but I've been busy, and I didn't really know what to talk about. I've always wanted to have a significant life, something that makes me wake up everyday very early so I can fight for it all day. That hasn't happened yet, but let's hope it will.
I've been confused lately so I didn't know how to explain it so I kept it all deep down. I, first of all, wanted to talk about family. Guys, I don't get it, every time I see a tweet about people who says "I hate my parents", "I love you guys more than I love my own family", I'm really hurt. I mean ok, we all fight with our family, but we live with them 24 hours / 7 days a week, so yeah sometimes we just want to scream or cry. But they've been there since day one! From the day you were all born, until today, and still love you no matter how different you are. And you met people, you're gonna meet some others and will believe they'll be your friends forever, but someday, they'll give up on you, while your family will always be there for you. So please, please, realize that because I'm really hurt to see such things.
I fight with my sister every single day, my parents yell at me, but you know what? I'm just so happy when we all sit there and have dinner together. It's the best time of my day because we can all laugh and talk and yell without being judged. I can watch cheesy stuffs on TV with my brother because we both love that. I can hang out with my sister, party with her, because deep down we're the same. I can do some karate with my dad and have fun, I can get in my mother's bed and fall asleep in her arms. We all have something in common with our family, just find it, and see how amazing it is. Don't be stuck on your computer the way I used to. Nothing happens here, take your life and do something.

Other thing I wanted to talk about, well let's begin with it. I've always believed I was special in so many ways. But as I was moving on in my life, I realized that in a way we were all special, therefore I can assume that we're all normal. Ain't we? I mean, normal isn't about beauty, intelligence, talent, weight, size, kindness, loneliness, religion is it? I guess it's just about being who we are. We won't please everyone so why should we keep on trying? Let's stay who we are, this is what beauty truly is.

Truth is I don't know where I'm going. I pretend I do, I pretend that I'm sure I'll find someone and marry him, I pretend I know what I will do once I'm graduated. I pretend I'm completely fine, but I'm sick and hurt to watch the news and read the newspapers. Everyone expects something from me, and I'm really trying because I love my family, my friends, I love you Jess. But sometimes I just don't want expectations. I'm 19 and I guess I have so much to see if God allows me to but I just sometimes need to cease the day and see what happens.
About good things, I may finally be able to meet Jess anytime soon, I don't know when but I'm looking forward to see the gift she has for me because I know it is wonderful. We may be able to shoot the video we're talking about for a year in March, so hopefully, we'll do it, and hopefully you'll love it.

Xoxo, Nano
From FrenchiesInLa